Life and Lyme

Muddling Through Life with Lyme Disease

Tag: family

  • priorities

    I am bouncing back from a particularly shitty relapse. I\’m feeling overwhelmed and hopeless, like I can\’t manage my own life anymore. The worst part of this relapse and aftermath has been mental. If you haven\’t heard from me in a while, you are not alone. I prefer to be wiggy in private. To add…

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  • Katie

    I discovered two things about myself the day Katie was born: I would die for another person, and I would kill for another person. That a love so fierce could spring up inside of me was a surprise I think no new parent can anticipate. I\’d been waiting for her my whole life. Why have…

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  • toil

    It has been almost six weeks since I began to seriously participate in my own life again. This sounds rather pathetic, but after three years of unrelenting illness, this is a major accomplishment. The problem is, what is my life? There is nothing, outside of staying in Denver, Katie, and my Dad, that is the…

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  • DNA

    I have two family trees. All adoptees do. The first is the family whose name I share, who I grew up with, my family. The other tree is newer, yet with older roots. It is my DNA tree. I had done a DNA test over fifteen years ago, but the parameters were much broader back then. This…

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  • dad

    Yes, my dad is alive and kicking. I want to take the opportunity to embarrass him while I can. It\’s not often we get our own personal heroes, but I have one, a fact that has become even more emphatically clear during my struggle with Lyme. Dad and I are extraordinarily close, our relationship uncomplicated,…

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  • liar

    I was going to write a paean to my Dad on my blog this week, being Father\’s Day and all, but my dad really, really hates Father\’s Day. Instead, I realized that I lie to myself about Lyme now. Yes. It\’s true. You can lie to yourself about anything. Think about it. I\’ve decided I should…

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  • time

    If I were to characterize myself, I\’d be the grasshopper in Aesop\’s Fable #373, \”The Ant and the Grasshopper.\” The grasshopper dances and frolics all summer, while the ant toils away, gathering food for the winter. When winter comes, the cold and hungry grasshopper begs the ant for food and shelter, and is refused. The…

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  • mess

    I was once a hot mess. I know this because I\’ve asked old friends what they thought of me back then. There was no rhyme or reason for my behavior in my teens and early twenties. I was completely unaware that I was, in my own way, desperately trying to work through my damage. Sometimes…

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  • hope

    I spent yesterday afternoon in a room full of Lyme patients. It was the first time I had been around so many Lyme sufferers. We were all gathered at the Tattered Cover to hear Dr. Richard Horowitz. For those of you who don\’t know, he is a demi-god in the pantheon of Lyme doctors. He\’s…

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  • body

    I like my body. I\’ve never quite trusted it, because it was broken when I was seven. I fell out of a tree and fractured my skull. I was in a coma for about a week. It\’s funny what you remember about hospital stays, especially when you\’re young. I definitely remember the nurses coming in…

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  • holiday

    As Christmas approaches, I am entering another year of purposely downplaying the holidays. I know, call me a Grinch if you want, but I bet my Christmas is way more relaxing than yours. This idea that holidays are the end-all be-all of everyone\’s life has always rankled. My dad is notorious for disliking almost all…

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  • genes

    With all the talk about elections, race identity has become a thing. White people are clamoring to stay on top, everyone else is frantic, and with good reason. Recently, a dear friend had her DNA tested, the kind of test that gives you percentages of your heritage. Hers was a veritable smorgasbord of ethnicities. She…

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  • mouse

    This past week, I got sick. A stomach bug. My daughter\’s boyfriend caught it and brought it home, thinking it was food poisoning. Three days later, Katie came down with a particularly virulent case. I washed everything like crazy, but it wasn\’t enough. Friday morning I woke with a queasy, hard knot in my stomach.…

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  • clean

    I\’ve had a bad week. Normally I\’m loathe to admit this, but it is pertinent to this post. Today is, so far, a good day. I walked the dogs, ate breakfast, and began to clean. I like to clean. It is a zen-like activity for me, one of those empty tasks that allows the brain to unravel…

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  • circles

    This weekend is my fortieth high school reunion. I am going. There is something about Texas that keeps me coming back, but I\’m not a Texan. I\’m what I like to call an \’accidental Texan\’. My parents aren\’t Texans, they are from Kansas, dropped into Texas because my dad was a geologist. I was born…

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